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Than Life

She walks, snow crunching under the light pressure of her leaky boots, and thinks about nothing. Rather, she thinks about nothingness, about absorption into the rocks and atmosphere and essence. Not too long before she decided to take this first-snowfall walk, a boy had explained it all to her, in the aftermath of sweet smoke. He delineated the beauty of the thing: giving up on self, becoming everything by being nothing. Every time she wakes up, it means she has not achieved Nirvana, it means she has not yet figured out how to transcend her own petty thoughts, her own avaricious desires, her own being, and always being larger or smaller than

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overlap -working title-there are moments  that make your bones ache  when you're waiting for a train  or lighting up a smoke  and a memory sifts through  the day to day grit  a bit of grace or truth  or simple understanding.  and your body becomes aware  that it exists outside  of the present  and there is nothing  you can say or  should have said  because language is a  clumsy art, but when  you get it right, well,  then you get it right.  and your legs walk  and your eyes take  everything in,  but your bones are  elsewhere, in some  other location &n overlap -working title-
in Open 2d 5h ago
what to do.wake up. bathroom. eat. smoke? look around. dress appropriately. walk around. take pictures. talk to people. go to work. call your friends. make decisions. piss off parents/lovers/bosses. don't take any shit, ya hear? spend as little money as possible. tour your city. make a wish. stop whining goddamnit. smoke? check your messages. forget something important. eat again. bathroom? later. check the time. do what you have to do, then do what you want to do. go to work. get out of work. smoke? remember the important thing you forgot. see someone from years ago and forget his name. he remembers yours though. offer a cigarette. get told to stop smo what to do.
in General Fiction on 2/1/08
over the counter sleepWe slept through the snow. At least I think we did, but it was probably just me who slept. He was probably awake, doing whatever he does that keeps him up all night, separates us from each other, leaving me like a little girl who's just let loose her balloon.  I use pills to sleep, but I don't think he uses them to stay awake. His mind works over everything and comes to no conclusions, no answers to the problems he creates.   
Snow used to come earlier, but this time it left us until December. It's raining now outside this window; the droplets catch in the screen and cast oblong shadows across the pale sheets. I can't reme over the counter sleep
in General Fiction on 12/4/07
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summer days

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 7, 2008, 12:53 PM
  • Mood: Spring Fever
summer days -- joelle zigman

Feels like forever I've been
Tripping over sidewalks
I've lost all former ability
To form complete sentences

But it's only been two months
I'll be totally gone by the time we're done
I've lost all former ability
To control what comes out of my mouth

It's not easy
This is not easy

'Cause you're something different
But I can't be relieved
Every time you leave me
It's like I've fallen asleep

Yes I'm somewhat desperate
But I'm hoping that's ok
'Cause summer days are longer for wondering
Where you are and what you're doing and if I should call you now or wait half an hour and if I do call you now what do I say if you pick up?
And they're too much time to wait

I can't focus on anything else
I want more time to spend with you
I've lost all former ability
To control what comes out of my mouth

It's not easy
This is not easy

'Cause you're something different
But I can't be relieved
Every time you leave me
It's like I've fallen asleep

Yes I'm somewhat desperate
But I'm hoping that's ok
'Cause summer days are longer for wondering
If maybe I should send you a message saying how much I miss you because that would be romantic, but on the other hand it's kind of pathetic, but I am kind of pathetic, so I'll probably do it anyway
And that's too much time to wait


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completely unrelated: new poem up.

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  • Current Age: voting age.
  • Interests: Music, people, sex, AFI fanfiction, theatre, poetry, language, photography, Marcus, libraries.
  • Favourite movie: Fight Club, Donnie Darko, The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Devil's Advocate, 28 Days Later,
  • Favourite band or musician: Against Me!, Leonard Cohen, AFI, Placebo, Bright Eyes, Lou Reed, Brand New, TBS, the Faint
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock n' roll, electronica, opera, musicals.
  • Favourite artist: Magritte. Picasso. Mateo Cartagena. Jane Chu.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Dorothy Parker, Evelyn Waugh, Neil Gaiman, Peter Lavelle, JK Rowling, Holly Black, Leonard Cohen.
  • Favourite photographer: Molly Gold (~durchstechen) and Zeba Blay (~bangbangmybaby)
  • Wallpaper of choice: Open air.
  • Skin of choice: Warm and willing.
  • Favourite game: Mind games.
  • Favourite gaming platform: Your head.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Sally, Jack Skellington, Biker Mice from Mars, the Sandman characters
  • Personal Quote: Nothing in life has any business being perfect.
  • Tools of the Trade: Pen, paper, digital cameras, and life.

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~PEACOCKblue:iconPEACOCKblue: Oct 6, 2007, 2:58:03 PM Mood: Wow!
Yo, hi.....
See you, when I see you, neh.....
~AKA-Trent:iconAKA-Trent: Jun 14, 2007, 5:23:52 AM
guess whos nback on da.... with actual work thi stime@
~jadedfey:iconjadedfey: Jan 9, 2007, 10:40:34 AM
allo!

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~Nikelyn:iconNikelyn: Oct 17, 2006, 7:20:40 PM Mood: Love
thanks for adding my 'thinking' to ur favs...[link]
Caring

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~AlmightyGammy:iconAlmightyGammy: Sep 6, 2006, 8:05:10 AM
Thanks for the watch! :]
~Alchornea:iconAlchornea: Aug 25, 2006, 7:59:42 AM
thank You very much for :+fav: :)

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so here you are, demons screaming in your head
you try to shut them out but they just get louder instead
~AKA-Trent:iconAKA-Trent: Aug 20, 2006, 4:25:30 PM
how are things im back.
~theholdenhour:icontheholdenhour: Apr 24, 2006, 8:48:41 PM
much thanks for the watch.

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~JMKoontz:iconJMKoontz: Apr 5, 2006, 4:36:35 PM
hey, thanks for the fav

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=LoganX78:iconLoganX78: Mar 30, 2006, 3:59:13 PM
Tnx a lot for the :+fav: on Black'n'White Kiss :)

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~PERMAsleep:iconPERMAsleep: Mar 26, 2006, 6:47:38 PM
I keel you, Susannah! I finally decided to do something with DA. <3
-Mayari
`Bringa:iconBringa: Mar 26, 2006, 10:27:08 AM
Hi

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~drowning-slowly:icondrowning-slowly: Mar 25, 2006, 10:53:07 AM
^^ I love you babe! thanks for the fav!

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~Freaky-Person:iconFreaky-Person: Mar 23, 2006, 3:33:32 PM
I just read over your fabourite authors and realised you don't have Terry Pratchett and now I must pretty much advertise his writing to you. He's an awsome comedy/Fantasy writer!!!

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~flames:iconflames: Mar 22, 2006, 4:09:21 PM
Thank you very much for the favorite on "mango delights". It's very much appreciated :heart:

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~bluetiger47:iconbluetiger47: Feb 22, 2006, 10:46:00 PM
Thanks so much for the fav on 'Simple Dreams' :)

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~crzyantisocialafigrl:iconcrzyantisocialafigrl: Feb 18, 2006, 1:58:10 PM
thanks

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~VestigePhoto:iconVestigePhoto: Feb 15, 2006, 9:43:43 PM
thanks so much for the :+fav:
~SnowFlurryCat:iconSnowFlurryCat: Feb 9, 2006, 11:00:45 PM
Thank you for faving my drawing "Hush Pen and Ink!" I'm SO honored that you chose this drawing to be in your favorites gallery!

~SnoCat :o

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~Nephylin:iconNephylin: Feb 6, 2006, 9:09:30 PM
hey thanx for the fave!

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